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ROOM TO FALL.

in case it isn't already apparent, i'm a spectacularly devoted fan of comic book fiction - my three dimensional experience as a spiritual perennial in this temporary meat reality is intensely intensified by some of these superpowered characters.

 i woke up today, seeing more and more of my own character in the god of thunder. 

 imagine being told you're worthy to rule the nine realms and spend your life going and growing into that role, allowing your pride to swell in your birthright. it's only a matter of time before your elevation puts you so high up that the fall becomes a steep one, right? 

 in time, you realise where and how you went wrong - you try to do better, to be better. like any driven protagonist, you do exactly that even through the hard times, and it shows.

 instinctively, you hurl yourself face first into your growth, your change; maybe a bit too fast because your character flaw shows itself again to remind you of your greatest fear - being unworthy.

 i guess i can relate because i don't want to be perfect. i want room to fall. i want to be just a normal guy. i think that'll make my story all the more powerful; not the predestined greatness of a man but the grounded impact of just another guy who knows what kind of great he wants to be, for himself.

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