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GRAVEYARD VISITS, PART I

hey or whatever the appropriate greeting is, i can't tell what's what anymore. today's really special for me, i can't speak for you but for me, bet.

 we would've gotten our bachelor’s degree in relationship management and analysis today - four years is no joke, even though we were really good at telling them.

 i don't know if you heard but i finally got an internship, like, with a contract and everything. i wish you could see me in there - i think you'd be proud.

 this is a victory that came all too late because i wanted to win it for us but we aren't "us" anymore. i keep having moments of cognitive dissonance because it doesn't seem real but it is.

 i'm looking toward finding my own place next, you know the reshuffling happening on the home front. i don't know how that's going to happen but it's got to, i suppose.

 my niece is growing healthily and seems to be smarter than the average infant. she's associated car rides with injections and cries each time we hop in. she smiles at me often.

 i hope you're doing better, though - i'm still heartbroken about your pup. he was a good boyo. i wouldn't love animals as much as i do now if it weren't for you and your mind opening simplicity.

 we still have a channel to open and a world to change; not sure if those are still things you want to do with me.

 i'm in a weird place - i need space and time but i also miss you and want to talk. it's weird. 

 i wish you were a part of all this, like you were before. but no matter how hard you want to hold on to a moment, you can't stop time from moving on.

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